On our friendship 

How two souls meet

Without ever meeting bodies-

How two hearts dance to music in rooms

Occupied by each-


How miles can spread between them,

But distance cannot occur

And words cannot falter when one is in silent thought about the other. 
So many things are-

But more should have been-

Except, they say, 

It is all as it should be,

Though they know together, 

That it isn’t. 

Things are things. 

Waiting to change. 

Going unchanged. 

Growing within change. 

But things,

No matter how subtle the change. 

Silence. But never quiet. 

Never without-

Even when gone. 

And always waiting for

That which has always been-

Ever since that moment when souls met without their bodies along to ruin anything-

Or everything, 

As bodies often do.

Just souls. 

And the music of hearts.  


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Stolen poetry

Stolen poetry

Like hotel bar soap-

Used to get me clean when I need to feel pretty-

Not because it’s good soap, 

But because it isn’t mine. 

Because I took it-

Not because it was I who took it, but because it was worth taking, to me.

Like stealing your mother’s perfume and wearing her favorite anything without permission-

Except different-

Because you can only steal from your mother-

Not because she thinks you a thief-

But because you are. 

Not to her-

To her it’s just soap. 

Stolen poetry-

Like hotel bar soap. 

Except it’s not really stealing

When they expect you to take it

And use it, 

Or give it away,

Or store it on the back of your toilet in the guest bathroom-

Reserved especially for them-

All of them. 

Any of them. 

To be taken. 

Like someone else’s words-

Used once to scrub us clean. 

Leaving us smelling new. 

Or lavender. 

Or sterile. 

Stolen poetry. 

Like hotel bar soap. 

Free to take

And yet.

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I understand. 

What my children need to understand about being a parent-When I was young, my parents would say, 

“When you have children, you will understand.”

Now, there are a lot of things that I don’t understand about my parents, but what I know is that they weren’t lying when they said this. 

If anything, they waited, in their grief, their frustrations and disappointments, their absolute terror, fears, with held breaths and clenched- sometimes grasping hands. They waited in their joys and moments of awe. In the moments we rendered them inconsolable, in the moments when we were as such. They waited in dark living rooms. Dimly lit kitchens next to phones. Lonely beds while they pondered where they went wrong in their own lives that somehow lead to the wrongness we were acting out in ours. They waited in cars that drove through neighborhoods, looking. Caught somewhere between wringing our necks and hugging us until our lungs collapsed. They waited in a state of love, so close to fear and pride and self doubt at their own abilities…They waited for understanding. The kind that, until you have held that tiny little being- the one that suddenly wants nothing to do with you…you cannot understand. 
That’s what we do. We wait. 

We know our voices drone on and all you want is someone to listen, but we just want to help. To save you the trouble. The pain. 

We walked that road so you wouldn’t have to. Just like all parents do. Or should, I suppose. 

The point is, it’s true. We know. We understand. We’ve been there. We have shortcuts and pain free ways of doing things…and we love you. We live you. We live you in a way you will never understand until you do. 

And we wait. Just like you will. And you know what? We will wait then too- except with you.

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It’s only a question 

You said-

All I did was ask a question!

And I say, yes. If indeed the answer is an accusation. A justification lost in a defense that you can’t make because in all honesty-

I ask the better fucking questions around here

And at best, you don’t even begin to question the question begged-

You’re just a distracted version of a bigger distraction that can’t sit down long enough to see the mirrors you walk in front of and around-

Day after day –

while clearly never seeing that its a reflection of the reality that you deny in order to live in the fantasy that you call life-

Unexamined they have said is not worth living-

And examining, stepping into the void, bearing the cross, seeking who you are underneath all that you aren’t-

They say, it feels like death. 

So either way you die-

But why not choose which way you go?

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Love on solstice

I fell in love when snow fell-

The winter solstice defined by a stolen kiss-
like when winter steals a spring day
and we aren’t ready, but there’s nowhere to run…
No urgency to run there.
We know what’s coming, but the best we can do is hope.

But it wasn’t spring.
I digress.
It was, quite literally, the Winter Solstice.
The day when light lives less in the sky,
but suddenly more in my heart.
And darkness brought a fresh longing for stars
and long, lovely, conversations
that lead to even longer and more lovely prose-
letters kept now in a box.
In my heart.
And kept now in a life between two people
who share solstices
and the seasons that are born beneath it’s cold.

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All things homeless make me sad

All things homeless make me sad.

Old Veterans on shopping center benches with their mate-
an old girl named Baby, left in a backyard to starve, but surviving anyways on God knows what
and other things that I can’t say,

And he says,
I just couldn’t have that, you know?

I know, I think.
Like how it kills me to leave you here on the bench, and her on the cold concrete under her three blankets.
I ask, do you need anything?
What in the holy hell am I asking that for?
Of course he needs.
But I’m not sure that either of us knows what that could be.
How big is the need?
What could possibly fill it?

I buy him shoes.
I buy the old girl some dog food.
I offer to feed them both on Christmas.
I’m going broke on both of our needs.

All things homeless make me sad.

Define home.
Define more than a location.  A locale.  A bench.  A car.
Defined as a house.
Defined as a space claimed,
or as a space welcoming you into it.
In general, defined as good.  So without home, we are less than home.

Defined by what we lack.  Somehow missing something, or something missing a place.
A place to rest.
A someone to belong to.
A pair.  A match.

A jar
A mate
A container in which we feel belonged to.

Lonely things make me sad.
Stray cats.
Stray dogs.
Stray people.  Alone and in packs.

I don’t actually know if any of them are lonely.
But then again,
I am sure they are.
And like my old Veteran and his old girl,
Loneliness is what they know.  How they live.  How they like it best because somewhere along the way it may have been too crowded-
Or maybe they got lost.
On the street,
or in their head.
or in their heart.
And now lonely is life.
Maybe now lonely is home
And no less lonely than where I am sitting in mine.

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Dear daughter

Sweetie. First of all, don’t stress. Learn that plans change and it sucks and you’re a whole helluva lot like your mother. I thrive on plans. I hate change. 

I am learning that it sucks, but it happens. All I can do is change with the plans or stand there in stress while the plans change around me. 

Second of all- you cannot get time lost, back again. Regrets are real and we never think we will have them. But we do. And because we are young, we don’t see that until we are older. If a magical genie came to you and said, 

“Ten years from now you will find true happiness, BUT only if you AVOID these things….”

We would avoid them. 

Technically parents ARE that genie. So make three wishes, stand back, BE PATIENT, and watch me work some magic. 

And trust me when I say, we always regret time lost with family. Always. 

Last, but not least in your mothers rant of wisdom this morning-

Sometimes when we are left to roam- free to our own wandering and misgivings, we end up feeling more lost than we would if we had a guide along the way. A path through the field of possibilities per se. 

It is probably true that right now you can’t see that as true. And if you do, I am neither the path, or the guide you had in mind. 

But I am however, just that. No matter what. No matter where. Or when. And I promise you-

You will never regret that. 

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