Tonight I am re reading all of my own stuff…this blog in particular resonates with me again…mostly because my pendulum is swinging again. I suggest to anyone that writes, re read yourself often. We really are our own best advisors. Now, if you will be so kind as to forgive my rehashing of me- I have a pendulum to catch and center.
“To rest in the center of anything means you know there’s utter chaos on either side of you.” -Melissa
I remember when my life was nothing more than utter chaos. Drama galore. Defeat, pain, poverty, anger, illness…It actually causes me anxiety to look back over my life- even a year ago. Six months ago. A month ago. Further back than a year and I feel as though I finally understand the whole out of body thing. Let me rephrase- I can see how out of my ever-loving mind I was. I can see, with compassion (finally) how much pain I was in. How long I had suffered. How much energy it took for me to blame the entire world- anyone and everything EXCEPT myself- for what was wrong in my life. It takes a long time to get to where I am. To learn that accountability is not blame. It…
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